drifting away
Tuesday, May 17, 2005 @ 11:32 am
How do you get over friends who no longer see you as one? How do you get over the fact that the meet-ups no longer include you? How much do you see as your fault and how much of theirs?
I tried. Not too many times, I admit. But I tried. At least I thought I did, but maybe they didn't think so. Everytime I tried to arrange for something, someone won't be able to make it and yet, when they do, I'm not involved. I know I sound petty but I'm not. It's just the sore ache in the heart that refuses to go away when I think about it. Coupled with everything else that had happened recently, it just adds on to it.
Should I then stop trying? I think I will. There's seems little point in prolonging a romanceless relationship.
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Have been toying with the idea of making this blog public but I've seen examples of how some have to regulate themselves with their feelings and emotions, because they're careful of who's reading their blog.
Anyway, what's my objective of telling them? So that I can comment on them on the blog, and they will indirectly know? So that I get sympathy? Maybe just so they can be updated without having to meet up. Maybe that's my way of staying in touch with my friends?
I tried. Not too many times, I admit. But I tried. At least I thought I did, but maybe they didn't think so. Everytime I tried to arrange for something, someone won't be able to make it and yet, when they do, I'm not involved. I know I sound petty but I'm not. It's just the sore ache in the heart that refuses to go away when I think about it. Coupled with everything else that had happened recently, it just adds on to it.
Should I then stop trying? I think I will. There's seems little point in prolonging a romanceless relationship.
___________________
Have been toying with the idea of making this blog public but I've seen examples of how some have to regulate themselves with their feelings and emotions, because they're careful of who's reading their blog.
Anyway, what's my objective of telling them? So that I can comment on them on the blog, and they will indirectly know? So that I get sympathy? Maybe just so they can be updated without having to meet up. Maybe that's my way of staying in touch with my friends?
